From Mathias Comes the Inspirational Book:
“My Heart Knows True”
Change is always happening, it’s all around us all the time. Sometimes change can be slight… sometimes it can be moderate… and sometimes it can be dramatic and powerful.
Many of us may be struggling in life and trying to make sense of it all while striving toward a more holistic destiny of oneness. But as life happens and time unfolds, sometimes events conspire to change our destiny in ways that are unimaginable. I had some of these powerful changes occur in my life.
For the most part, I had done a pretty good job of navigating a lot of the curves and turns in the road of life. Having attended an ancient school of wisdom for almost a dozen years, I had acquired the foundational experiences and understandings needed to put my life on track for what I thought I wanted. I had a successful business, a secure, long term relationship, I was in very good health, and had a decent amount of money in the bank. Then in 2011, I made some bad investment choices, and my father died (my mother had died many years before that). All of this created a very difficult emotional experience for me.
Then shortly after that time, my 14-year old business was wiped out — almost overnight —due to dramatic changes on the internet. Despite my most valiant efforts to put things back in order, it became impossible as my company was manually removed from the search engines and our featured services no longer worked to add sufficient value to my clients. Every attempt to recreate myself within the context and structure I had been following all those years failed. I had to let go of several dozen long-term helpers and friends who were part of the organization. Then, my beloved pet dog of 16 years died. After all of this, I followed up with an attempt to regain a financial grip on things through stock and option investing which resulted in a huge financial disaster. That really brought things to a low point. I should have recognized the gamble mentality of trying to get even.
As you can imagine, all of these events put pressure on me and others around me. Not knowing what I was going to do and being largely alone except for my long-term live-in female partner of 18-and-a-half years, I tried many different things to begin again. But nothing seemed to work to secure the income stream I needed, or to provide a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment. Then one day the unthinkable happened. My partner with whom I had been through so much, the woman who was my best friend in life, came to me one morning and said, “I really hate to do this, but today I’m leaving. My parents and movers will be here in 15 minutes.” My heart sank to the floor. I knew it was true. I had no warning, no notice, no idea other than I had known things had not been good for the last year or two with all the stress and uncertainty. My best friend of 18-and-a-half years walked out the door that day. As of this writing, I have not heard from her or been able to speak with her as she changed her phone number and never made her whereabouts known to me, despite my many emails and phone forwarded messages to her.
Well, when you find yourself in a place and state of being like that, there is no reprieve from the rawness of the experience. A few days later, something came forward in my life — something deep within me — from the depths of my despair and grief. Something poured through me, so with blurry eyes and a breaking heart, I let the pen move across the paper and it began…
“Bring joy to your corner of the world – wherever it may travel. Bring hope and inspiration wherever it may find a home.”
(An excerpt from the first communication and inspirational stories “from the heart”)
Over the days and weeks that followed, I continued to write, not from the mental but from the heart and my deeper subconscious mind that consoled me and spoke through my tears into the blankness that I was.
Now, I invite you to turn the pages with me and read my inspirational book. As sacred and private as this was, there is an essence that was shared through me. Now it is being shared with you and others. May you embark on a journey into opening the heart with wisdom, kindness and compassion. As you read and approach the final words of this publication, you’ll find a letter written to my heart many years ago. May I humbly suggest that is right where you may want to begin your inward journey—by writing a letter to your own heart. Namaste, my friends. Peace and light to your heart and your beloved journey.